Devolving into something ugly
Something scary
The fortress is open
Allowing in all manner of mischievous spirits
Enabling access to unnatural limitations, deviance, and depravity
Feeding the darkness within
Taking with it any attachment to kin, love, or anything
Cannot be your standby
Looks like you’re going to have to get by without me
I know you don’t like to be lonely
And I know you are a slave to your selfish desires
Very tiresome from the outside looking in
Pointless to measure when you never win
Against the strength of the change winds
Deluded myself yet again
Bored to death and lax with complacency
… a particular niche for you and me
And although my desires were not met
It somehow felt comfortable didn’t it?
The alternative much more harrowing a thought
…so I created a narrative that I could live with
Break the chains
Break the shackles
Be free
Autonomy is the answer
To the mystery it seems
Awareness and conscious perception viewing things in reality
Reflection
Intuition telling you the way to go
But why do you not follow?
Born in a river village
Do not ask me as if I do not know
You see that it is resounding
And I know that it shows
What makes me stick out like a sore thumb
In the village makes me at home
When I breathe in that fresh air
The feeling like nothing I’ve ever known
This is where I’m home grown
This is where I belong
The place I’ve been searching for and I have always longed for
Unreal the way it unfolds
Pinching myself every step of the way
Definitely like a dream world that has me under sway
