So my sister and I were discussing the cruelty of the fast paced big city today and we pondered the truth behind it all. THE BIG CITY ATTITUDE.

 

Some are using the recession as an excuse of sorts, as this kind of thing has the ability to leave folks down trodden and many unconsciously project this feeling outward without realizing it. Everything is communicated whether we believe it or not. Are we tuned in to these communications would be the question? I say most of us react without a second thought as to why.. this implies we are behaving roboticallly/ unconsciously acting off of the constant poison fed intraveneously to all  us through the TV and all forms of media matter of fact.

 

Anyway that was a helluva tangent… which leads to yet another tangent I just thought of…

 

Summer is ending (it was a good one by the way), and here comes Fall and Winter. Which led me to thoughts of the time change and time difference making the daylight shorter in duration and darkness  longer.. stronger  Which led me to thoughts of Seasonal affective disorder… a psychological ailment that tends to increase around this time of year. Seasonal affective disorder in short is a mood disorder triggered by Fall & Winter (or the extended periods of darkness or both). It is very interesting as I watch so many around me in an ever increasing state of anxiety and depression. Click the link to see more about this mood disorder in detail.

 

 

So yeah, maybe its not the recession or living in a big city, maybe we got some mood disorders to throw into the melting pot of emotions.

 

We all know the world is cruel, people (including if not mainly family & friends) are fronting and faking constantly. They deal with looking at their everlasting half empty glass by externalizing/projecting their hate/disdain for themselves unto the outside world and ultimately you. They hold you close and listen to you whisper your secrets, they turn right around and share your secrets with the world including embellishments to pad their own feelings of inadequacy and low self esteem. At the end of it all, "What did I do?" "I didn’t do anything!"   (I mean are you asking me or are you telling me? sheesh!)        –    __    –          riiiiiiggghhhtttt. But yes, in the end there is no accountability for the rumors started, no responsibility for the hurt/ the pain caused. Just amnesia… wow ain’t that about a BITCH. Oh yes it is, and ever so typical, yet always shocking, always disappointing. Like I said, especially from family.. people who are supposed to know you intimately. Those who should reserve judgement, as you undoubtedly do the same for them. Reciprocation if you will, if you won’t… google it.  Do you put others down when you are feeling down? Then this hypothetical individual mentioned above is most likely you, stop externalizing your inner angst and start loving yourself. I understand why you cannot act right, its because you need to get right.. with yourself. It has nothing to do with others. Stop being a hypocrite donkey and running your mouth… or at least don’t be surprised when the gossip comes back to slap you in your face, its nothing but a viscious cycle. Karma will repay all debts incurred.