Author: PoetessLaureate
I am a writer, counselor, and student of human behavior with a particular fascination for the unseen forces that organize our lives. My work combines psychology, field theory, complexity theory, attachment, and personal reflection to explore how people become who they are, how they change, and how they become entangled in one another’s stories. Psychological Cartography is my ongoing effort to map the terrain of the mind and the relational fields we inhabit. Through essays, poetry, and original concepts, I explore topics such as emotional contagion, projective identification, identity formation, social influence, and the hidden architectures of human connection. This is a place for curiosity, reflection, and the search for deeper coherence.
Maniacal Ascension
Searching inside…
Now desire awake!
Almost better to see it in a dormant state.
Almost… but not quite
A maniacal ascension blinds the sight
Though immeasurably pleasurable
Danger it will bring!
The compulsion
The obsession
The voices sing!
… and they plan to bring down everything
You made me feel
I love the way you loved me
It set the precedence
For any other future love must be equivalent and nothing less
I was in a dark place when you found me
Isolated, lonely…
…and dangling on the edge of insanity
Only your extended hand pulled me back from the precipice
Where I planned to fall into the abyss that I had been marching toward forever
I felt almost human
I felt almost whole
Yet my soul still too tortured to play this role
My perspective so askew
Doubt I could see it the way you view
But you made me feel something I never knew
I laugh at my resilience
I laugh at my resilience!
At my willingness to try
You see…
I am not dead inside
There still lights a spark in me
Apparently…
I am not some hardened shell that cannot bend or breathe
I am a tangible, emotional, human being
For the loss in loving you
Please excuse errors I was thinking and writing really fast and this is my first draft…
