Thinking preserved self continuity when feeling did not protect against emotional engulfment, relational collapse, identity diffusion or being pulled into someone else’s gravity.
Just make sure you sequence the process properly for maximum effect.
And that is sufficient for now.
I learned to divide myself
not out of cleverness
but out of need.
To keep the engine running,
each part learned its station:
one for winning,
one for not sitting still long enough
for the floor to give way.
Stillness was expensive.
Motion paid the bills.
I organized my inner life
like a system under pressure
efficient,
quiet,
appearing whole.
the Purgatory of a Broken Heart 