With the use of heightened pattern recognition overtime you come to desire a different kind of chemistry, one that doesn’t buzz and hum with mystery and excitement, but instead, seems almost boring in it’s steadiness and calm.
That’s the kind of chemistry that builds a true connection, not one based in fantasy.
A clean disappearance without defensiveness.
Impact without seduction.
Power without posture.
No justification and no looking back. I withdraw the self, leaving altered perception behind.
A disciplined choice.
Why should I be scared to step out at night? I’m grown. I can handle myself. I got the shank and the taser. ☠️
Why should I stay trapped between these four walls, engulfing me like a prison?
I want to live and be free.
the Purgatory of a Broken Heart 