2025 Recap
This is not a poem written from longing, rage, or collapse. It is written from post withdrawal clarity. No longer negotiating reality. The self has become the reference point again.
The quiet power here is not dominance it’s non-engagement without collapse.
Unblocked projection is a sign of psychological readiness not weakness. It means that you’re in a world is active, your psyche is searching for relational embodiment, and your future self is organizing.
However, to hold the symbolic role within a projection, there must be some reciprocation of/in reality.
I learned to divide myself
not out of cleverness
but out of need.
To keep the engine running,
each part learned its station:
one for winning,
one for not sitting still long enough
for the floor to give way.
Stillness was expensive.
Motion paid the bills.
I organized my inner life
like a system under pressure
efficient,
quiet,
appearing whole.
I was attached to the parts of myself that she temporarily activated.
Thinking, this is a place where my depth can matter. My love can land. My intuition can guide. And my nurturing can transform. But it was just a fantasy. 🌙
You may not have loved or even liked me, but at the end of the day it’s you who needed me. It is my fire that brought the heat. 🔥
the Purgatory of a Broken Heart 