It takes time to develop such confidence.

You must try again,

And again and again.

Yet still, good reasoning never wins..

So here we stand on this battlefield in opposing factions.

Not allied as we should be.

This is a most confounding mystery.

The seed of doubt manifested into reality…

And here we stand polar opposites..

What happened to “We”?

I want you sooo bad..

I can taste you on my lips.

It is a wonder.. you are not here,

To calm my nerves,

Relieve my fears.

So I just picture you here.

Yet sometimes I miss that physical thing…

Only reality can ultimately bring.

I swear I feel you sometimes..

More than in the pockets of my mind.

I feel your presence.

I feel your touch.

I have been longing for, so much.

We are back to back sitting on a bench in a park.

There is dead silence..

Cold air.

We cannot look,

Only feel each other through the beat of our hearts and the heat of our bodies.

No eyes venture,

No touching..

Just words.

Feeling our heartbeats thumping…

Do you hear the texture of my jacket in the running wind?

Can you feel my hair on the back of your neck?

 

I feel like we are two trees in a forest…

Leaves cascading in the wind.

Natural and free, branches extended and roots gnarled together.

Gasping in the wind.

The scent of flowers and the sunlight radiant.

We sit back to back,

Pondering one another.

I am reaching out to find you in a distant land so far away

I almost feel you touch my  fingertips.. then I slip into a trance

In my mind we are more than symbolically attached

An intimate affair

The perfect match

I am addicted now

Cannot simply stop.. no how

I am obsessive, constantly, second guessing myself pondering you

A repetitive loop

I find myself back where I started

The adoration is true

You see how I pursue?