Month: March 2018

Introspective me

Breaking my self down

No reason to shy away from the reality

I have to look inward

I must see

no more delusions

no more cognitive dissonance

no more false imagery

no more unconscious existence

Stepping into the light as a conscious being

Impartial to the place

No motivation

No sparks

No chemistry

This place is dead on arrival I see

What I cannot do… is unsee

The confounding wreckage dispersed before me

Strewn everywhere like some wild confetti

Like a charlatan disguising itself as some great glory

That should somehow be magnetizing for me

Instead it is repelling me violently

I refuse this blasphemy

They were nightmares

I saw you before I came to

I dreamt of you

Every time I closed my eyes

I visualized your silhouette against a backdrop of the darkest depths

My shackles like shadowy darkness in the obsidian night

Left me bound and nearly dead of fright

I felt much pressure

Then the light was flooding me

Wakening me from my dreary reverie