I know what triggering means

Implying the unseen

Creating a chemical reaction in me

Devouring my sensibilities

Forcing my hand psychologically

Yet I do not have to manifest a negative reaction

Ideally

Having no self awareness of my current state

I find myself lingering

I cannot think too much because it hurts too much

So I find myself in a dissociative haze

There is no clean slate when I come to

There is no way to undo

The difficulty in finding logic here somehow

When emotion was all I knew

No way to transcend

..in these turbulent feelings

That have me reeling