Author: PoetessLaureate

I am a writer, counselor, and student of human behavior with a particular fascination for the unseen forces that organize our lives. My work combines psychology, field theory, complexity theory, attachment, and personal reflection to explore how people become who they are, how they change, and how they become entangled in one another’s stories. Psychological Cartography is my ongoing effort to map the terrain of the mind and the relational fields we inhabit. Through essays, poetry, and original concepts, I explore topics such as emotional contagion, projective identification, identity formation, social influence, and the hidden architectures of human connection. This is a place for curiosity, reflection, and the search for deeper coherence.

Permanent Damage

Coming through on the other side unscathed

Could hardly ever be the case

Yet to weather the storm

To balance the gravity of insanity

To ascend from the bowels of the masochistic fray

And somehow be washed ashore intact

Is a revolutionary act

The sustenance for your craving…

I have the sustenance for your craving

Cease the ranting and raving

Calm you’re troubled soul

There is no need to hunger anymore

You humbly asked

I shall produce

The divine material

To fill the emptiness

The body of the goddess

The wine in chalice

For only you to partake

Spiritual Debt

Try as I might …

Try as I may ..

I could never repay

Indebted to the end of days

The cost not a tangible thing

Yet an essence nonetheless

It holds gravity

In a spiritual realm

No mere material could imagine to transcend

To dream of paying the cost

Overload

Too much for me

I cannot control

The overload

Breaking me down

Pound for pound

All burnt out

I have physical limits

Some things I cannot take

Left in a spiritual state

Where I am vulnerable to various entities

That are more experienced and navigate this landscape much better than me

Since I value my autonomy

I cannot linger

Yet the inevitable return to the physical state

… is another precarious existence

Which is my fate

Power through

The weight too heavy

What can I do?

I am left no choice

But to power through

If I stop now

I may never start again

I may be cast aside

To watch others win

Since this is not something I envision

…and since visions manifest reality

…I will take the pain, and the hurt, and the body bending gravity