Try as I might …

Try as I may ..

I could never repay

Indebted to the end of days

The cost not a tangible thing

Yet an essence nonetheless

It holds gravity

In a spiritual realm

No mere material could imagine to transcend

To dream of paying the cost

Too much for me

I cannot control

The overload

Breaking me down

Pound for pound

All burnt out

I have physical limits

Some things I cannot take

Left in a spiritual state

Where I am vulnerable to various entities

That are more experienced and navigate this landscape much better than me

Since I value my autonomy

I cannot linger

Yet the inevitable return to the physical state

… is another precarious existence

Which is my fate

The weight too heavy

What can I do?

I am left no choice

But to power through

If I stop now

I may never start again

I may be cast aside

To watch others win

Since this is not something I envision

…and since visions manifest reality

…I will take the pain, and the hurt, and the body bending gravity

The Sun is shining

Absorbing the rays

Staying melanated up

Energized

Powered up

… ready for whatever may come my way

I will be greeting and meeting it enthusiastically

… interactions will be drastically resounding

Vibrations expanding exponentially

More than ever before

The phoenix shall take flight and soar

…after resurrecting from ashes

Stranging emotions

Flanging on you

Presence burst out and envelopes

Do not misconstrue

No need to ponder why

The answer so natural

Like two magnets attracting in an alternate universe

One where our spirits are dispersed exponentially

…reaching out and touching everyone and everything

Crushing the box that tries to contain

Remaining ambiguous, insane