Motivation for

An even score

Not just superficial

But so much more…

That natural connect

That chemistry

The innate science that draws you to me

Pheromones, oxytocin, and whatnot

I love to love

Outside of the box

This is different

I am pleased

It is unfolding just as I dreamed

Manifest the dream into reality

Is it worth?

Making it work??

Or will the chaos have me going berserk

Will my head be in the clouds.. distracted by common attractions

Nothing special..

Just enough to get by

Yet I may be –>

Blocking possible blessings with endless stressing about less not more

Electrifying a negative, sunken cost, sphere

When my attention can be focused elsewhere

A waste of energy

Why not focus on something more appeasing?

Pleasing… to me

My heart tells me that it wants that

… yet it does not know anything at all

At all…

All of the pieces tumble and fall under the lightest pressure

When the appearance was robust

You can’t trust anything it seems

I didn’t see

So accustomed to delusional realities

Programmed and tranced out

… to go with the flow and don’t rock the boat

… yet some basic primal intuition keeps you afloat

Just under the surface of consciousness

Strategically preying on your chance to gain ground again

Devolving into something ugly

Something scary

The fortress is open

Allowing in all manner of mischievous spirits

Enabling access to unnatural limitations, deviance, and depravity

Feeding the darkness within

Taking with it any attachment to kin, love, or anything

Cannot be your standby

Looks like you’re going to have to get by without me

I know you don’t like to be lonely

And I know you are a slave to your selfish desires

Very tiresome from the outside looking in

Pointless to measure when you never win

Against the strength of the change winds