Please excuse errors I was thinking and writing really fast and this is my first draft…

No use pondering anymore

Tired from the racing thoughts

Trying to come to terms with myself

The destruction I sought

Yet it is more complicated than that

Self doubt

Eating me from the inside out

Tearing apart my sanity

In this love drought

The mind shattered in a thousand pieces

There must be somewhere I can compartmentalize

This hurting part of me I can not seem to let go

Not consciously or unconsciously

Affirmations are not working

Prayers going unanswered

This dark cloud hovering ever cautiously

Is threatening rain

…and I remain in purgatory

Empty words you feed to me

Yet I still crave, so hungrily

For sustenance

For nourishment

For solidity

In these blind statements

Please do not say

What you will not do

Who will break my fall?

If not you?

How much more can I wait?

Wait so patiently…

For poetic words to set me free

For the promises to redeem me

For a foolish heart.. to believe in me

It hurts

…but it’s more so the bruised ego and not the broken heart

The pain and recovery is a world of difference apart

What a blessing for a lonely soul

The synapses connections in our hearts

Ringing off the charts

Right from the very start

Such a treat to indulge

So I plunge in with great exurberance

The energy is electric

No static

The unspoken gestures naturally made clear

No need for doubt

No fear

… and judging by your stare

You over-stand