No use pondering anymore

Tired from the racing thoughts

Trying to come to terms with myself

The destruction I sought

Yet it is more complicated than that

Self doubt

Eating me from the inside out

Tearing apart my sanity

In this love drought

The mind shattered in a thousand pieces

There must be somewhere I can compartmentalize

This hurting part of me I can not seem to let go

Not consciously or unconsciously

Affirmations are not working

Prayers going unanswered

This dark cloud hovering ever cautiously

Is threatening rain

…and I remain in purgatory