Identity-level internal chaos and avoidant attachment is driving you to sabotage and lose control. But, rest assured this was no failure. You could think of it as practice.
Tag: hurt
Performative Vulnerability
A lot of people stay in this for years.
You snapped out in months, and honestly, faster mentally than emotionally.
That’s self-protection.
Your intuition is strong.
Emotional Adrenaline Cycle Complete ✅
No more jumping through hoops, no more emotional gymnastics. Your fire won’t scare them, It’ll attract them, once the cycle is complete.
Off the Rails
If everyone can see your problem, but you. Is the problem actually yours to hold, or is it for others to unpack?
the Purgatory of a Broken Heart 