I can not control others thus I MUST control myself… I must never let them ever see me sweat!

 

Though I am nervous and sometimes frightened,

 

Knowing this is NOT the enlightened way.

 

My anxiety knawing ruthlessly away at me, only sanity could save me… 

 

However lacking at this point,

 

Situation is grave see,

 

I am unraveling ever swiftly,

 

But on the outside I hope it would not be apparent,

 

All the hurt and pain and anguish stored inside but I can not bear it.

Anxiety eating me from the inside out,

 

Stomach twisting in knots,

 

Voices inside SHOUT!

 

I am on the edge and you should take heed… otherwise suffer the consequences undoubtedly.

I thought I saw something in you,

 

Upon second glance I see now it was not true.

 

 

You were a painted image,

 

You were not yourself.

 

Who knew how you digressed.

 

 

You were hiding,

 

Yet I am the recluse.

 

Passive aggressive psychological abuse!

 

 

No longer of use anymore.

 

Your ego ever hungry for more…

 

 

Insatiable beast!

 

A venus fly trap!

 

I forfeit the game.

 

This shit is a wrap!