I can not control others thus I MUST control myself… I must never let them ever see me sweat!

 

Though I am nervous and sometimes frightened,

 

Knowing this is NOT the enlightened way.

 

My anxiety knawing ruthlessly away at me, only sanity could save me… 

 

However lacking at this point,

 

Situation is grave see,

 

I am unraveling ever swiftly,

 

But on the outside I hope it would not be apparent,

 

All the hurt and pain and anguish stored inside but I can not bear it.