I have this voice in my head

That does not sound like me

Keeps telling me the cruelest things and won’t let me rest or be

I keep pushing it out

It creeps right back in again

Telling me these crazy things

That does not sound like myself

I keep diverting the thoughts

I am in control you see

Yet the control is unraveling

With quickening speed

Excruciating pain shattering me

Into a million fragmented pieces

How could I pull myself together again?

How could I become whole again?

All I know is endless pain

Like a storm that will never end

It just keeps on raging and wreaking havoc

Dragging my core down to the depths

Where I can not even seem to catch a breath

Nor utter a word in defense of myself