Author: PoetessLaureate

I am a writer, counselor, and student of human behavior with a particular fascination for the unseen forces that organize our lives. My work combines psychology, field theory, complexity theory, attachment, and personal reflection to explore how people become who they are, how they change, and how they become entangled in one another’s stories. Psychological Cartography is my ongoing effort to map the terrain of the mind and the relational fields we inhabit. Through essays, poetry, and original concepts, I explore topics such as emotional contagion, projective identification, identity formation, social influence, and the hidden architectures of human connection. This is a place for curiosity, reflection, and the search for deeper coherence.

The clouds are coming in again…

Umbrella Threatening to engulf me.
 
Closing in wrapping ice cold arms squeezing tightly…
 
I love it so so dangerous… most like any other rush.
 
The darkness draws me interestingly… though unseen,
 
The presence/power resonates through infinite.
 
One of the few things I follow blindly.Black Sheep
 

..don’t know what it was but it was something…

I couldn’t really call it, the feeling left in my gut.
 
No way to articulate, the feeling left me in a rut.
 
I could not get away, try as I might try as I may,
 
This feeling lingers, it stays… and though this love so tangible I wish it’d go away. Broken heart
 
 
You broke my heart in two and our brief union through…
 
Yet why do I still think of you?
 
Every logical explanation pointing to the fact that I knew..
 
We were not meant!
 
Meager efforts spent and must certainly be cut short…
 
Yes I know my barriers were up!
 
But I’d let them down for you!
 
If only you would want me to?
 
If only you would Red heart me too…
 
 
 

COPACETIC

I can not control others thus I MUST control myself… I must never let them ever see me sweat!Hot
 
Though I am nervous and sometimes frightened,
 
Knowing this is NOT the enlightened way.Sun
 
My anxiety knawing ruthlessly away at me, only sanity could save me… 
 
However lacking at this point,
 
Situation is grave see,
 
I am unraveling ever swiftly,
 
But on the outside I hope it would not be apparent,
 
All the hurt and pain and anguish stored inside but I can not bear it.

ANXIETY!

Anxiety eating me from the inside out,
 
Stomach twisting in knots,
 
Voices inside SHOUT!
 
I am on the edge and you should take heed… otherwise suffer the consequences undoubtedly.Wilted rose

Thunder thunder thunder thunder…

I thought I saw something in you,
 
Upon second glance I see now it was not true.
 
 
You were a painted image,
 
You were not yourself.
 
Who knew how you digressed.
 
 
You were hiding,
 
Yet I am the recluse.
 
Passive aggressive psychological abuse!
 
 
No longer of use anymore.
 
Your ego ever hungry for more…
 
 
Insatiable beast!Angry
 
A venus fly trap!
 
I forfeit the game.
 
This shit is a wrap!