Day: September 14, 2010

From insult to injury

It has gone from insult, to injury
 
This is not what you would pretend it to be
 
Sickening me to the pit of my stomach
 
Nauseating lack of discretion disabling my composure
 
Surely revenge would be your exposure
 
Then again.. how could I truly berate
 
What was never great
 
You are just a stagnant STALEMATE

I find it ironic

Are you micro-managing what I do?
 
Well.. what about you?
 
I find it ironic, this is what you would choose…
 
What if the tables were turned?
 
Running commentary on you?
 
What revelations would we come to?Eye rolling smile

Taking hate to a new level

We all know the world is cruel, people (including if not mainly family & friends) are fronting and faking constantly. They deal with looking at their everlasting half empty glass by externalizing/projecting their hate/disdain for themselves unto the outside world and ultimately you. They hold you close and listen to you whisper your secrets, they turn right around and share your secrets with the world including embellishments to pad their own feelings of inadequacy and low self esteem. At the end of it all, "What did I do?" "I didn’t do anything!"   (I mean are you asking me or are you telling me? sheesh!)        –    __    –          riiiiiiggghhhtttt. But yes, in the end there is no accountability for the rumors started, no responsibility for the hurt/ the pain caused. Just amnesia… wow ain’t that about a BITCH. Oh yes it is, and ever so typical, yet always shocking, always disappointing. Like I said, especially from family.. people who are supposed to know you intimately. Those who should reserve judgement, as you undoubtedly do the same for them. Reciprocation if you will, if you won’t… google it.  Do you put others down when you are feeling down? Then this hypothetical individual mentioned above is most likely you, stop externalizing your inner angst and start loving yourself. I understand why you cannot act right, its because you need to get right.. with yourself. It has nothing to do with others. Stop being a hypocrite donkey and running your mouth… or at least don’t be surprised when the gossip comes back to slap you in your face, its nothing but a viscious cycle. Karma will repay all debts incurred.

I NEED YOU NOW!

I need you NOW!
 
Nothing matters without you!
 
Just a shadowy cast
 
Shallow..
 
See through…
 
 
Everything comes and goes
 
Ever change in eb and flow
 
A singular constant anchoring me
 
You NEVER switch it up
 
You love me consistently
 
 
See I never had to guess
 
You made things blatantly clear
 
You never faltered
 
You were always there
 
To show me that you care