Month: September 2010

this is not a shocker and yet…

09/26/2010 · Leave a comment ·

You did not care at all apparently

i am not shocked in all honesty

I made a bad decision keeping you and did not fix it quickly enough

(i wasn’t focused… shit was rough)

And im not trying to bring about a resurrection

Instead moving in a new direction with new hope

Tried to cope in a bad time and you made it worse for me

I know i should not take it personal

Yet i cannot help but feel angry

Rapture

09/21/2010 · 1 Comment ·

Real intimacy.

Give it to me!

I have waited and deserve this.

So serve this delicacy in all its extravagance!

I have patiently awaited my loves entrance…

I submit to the rapturous trance! Red heart

We MUST change our trajectory

09/16/2010 · Leave a comment ·

You do not have the power to move me anymore

I am not even slightly amused

I could not muster the energy to care

Your pointless loafing standing there

As if i would even miss it

Go on ahead and dismiss it into the clearing at the end of the path

We lingered too long here now its time for us to be moving on past Rainbow

We can call it a draw

We can even shake hands

You see our orbits were on a collision course

Urgency to change our trajectory 180 degrees

And we must do this individually

Seasonal affective disorder

09/15/201010/02/2010 · Leave a comment ·

So my sister and I were discussing the cruelty of the fast paced big city today and we pondered the truth behind it all. THE BIG CITY ATTITUDE. Confused smile

Some are using the recession as an excuse of sorts, as this kind of thing has the ability to leave folks down trodden and many unconsciously project this feeling outward without realizing it. Everything is communicated whether we believe it or not. Are we tuned in to these communications would be the question? I say most of us react without a second thought as to why.. this implies we are behaving roboticallly/ unconsciously acting off of the constant poison fed intraveneously to all us through the TV and all forms of media matter of fact.

Anyway that was a helluva tangent… which leads to yet another tangent I just thought of…

Summer is ending (it was a good one by the way), and here comes Fall and Winter. Which led me to thoughts of the time change and time difference making the daylight shorter in duration and darkness longer.. stronger Sleeping half-moon

Which led me to thoughts of Seasonal affective disorder… a psychological ailment that tends to increase around this time of year. Seasonal affective disorder in short is a mood disorder triggered by Fall & Winter (or the extended periods of darkness or both). It is very interesting as I watch so many around me in an ever increasing state of anxiety and depression. Click the link to see more about this mood disorder in detail.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seasonal_affective_disorder

So yeah, maybe its not the recession or living in a big city, maybe we got some mood disorders to throw into the melting pot of emotions. Light bulb